one of those days!!!!

Wow beginning to wonder if I am doing a good job at all......do you ever have days where you ask yourself if you really are a good mom? Are you really cut out? Do you have days where you think I am completely failing these little people who depend on me for there emotional and physical health. I think "I am the person who is supposed to shape these two people into well intentioned functions adults who know right from wrong have manners are loving and kind and all this good stuff I am supposed to equip them with the ability to cope with disappointment, stress, not getting there way people bothering them and all else that life throws at them"...it sometimes feels unbearable how in the world am I supposed to do this when I am not even sure if I have this figured out strike that when I KNOW I don't have this all figured out and on top of it I am supposed to be a wife and try to be myself. I'm not really sure where I am going with all this but I needed to get it out. I absolutely LOVE being a mom I just want to make sure I am a good one. I think I am for the most part (we all have our moments) but there are days when everything seems to be falling apart. One kid is crying one is telling you that you don't spend enough time with them and that all you do is clean and it breaks your heart but then I think what do you mean we spend all morning one on one with school we have lunch and little times all through the day and I have to clean...this place falls apart every time I turn around. What am I to do! I never wanted to be the mom that cleaned instead of spending time with the kids. it breaks my heart to think that is how he feels. Then they say all you do is yell well yeah I finally yell after I've asked you nicely and in every creative way I could think of at least ten times!!! oh boy please don't tell me I'm alone in this......what to do what to do. It's just hard when you think your working your hardest and suddenly you feel you are failing and you don't know where to start maybe starting is crying by yourself on the floor LOL okay thank you for listening what a day well I need to go hug my boys and try even harder to make sure I can somehow pull myself together enough to attempt to be the mom I want to be for them and give them all I can to equip them for this life.