The mothers heart

A mother's heart is an interesting one. It has so many different angles to it and depth. It has a special place for each child that will never empty out of love no matter how old the child or how many. It remembers all the little things each child has done. All the little silly things that only she sees as the most precious thing. It categorizes all the little daily requests and helps her smile as she makes peanut butter and jellies(this one wants it cut into squares, this one doesn't like grape jelly) A mothers heart holds that hidden energy for when we don't know how were making it through the day. It also holds the patience for all the crazy days. It allows us to laugh when we want to scream. Cry all the way through a smile as you watch your baby grow up before your eyes. A mother's heart holds on to the hope that your child will come out of whatever stage of life it is there hitting. A mothers heart grows in labor as she gives all she has to bring this baby here to life. And it continues growing through every single moment. It is awakened from the first moment you know that child is growing inside you. The mothers heart is so special and big that it spreads through the whole house and everywhere you go. It is what allows us to hear the sweet music through the noise. It is that feeling of what makes a house a home. The heart makes us smile as we get to be part of another day of putting an end to fights, answering questions your not sure you know the answer to, washing clothes, cooking snacks and meals, being late because at the last minute someone falls in mud but it keeps us knowing in the end that these are the best days of your life. It has us make silly cookies batch after batch just to see the look on there face, it makes us remember being a child so we can really see the dragon your 4 year old is telling you about. It holds the healing power of our kisses and hugs that make all things better. A mother is the heart and her child is her treasure. We each walk to our own beat but always stay connected.

55 days

Brendon and Hayden each got new boots from Grandpa Lester and Katy (his new wife) they are so so so cute. Little Ropers just like Grandpa's and dad's they live in them.
Wess cries A LOT but one thing that makes him happy is jumping and for whatever reason his favorite place to jump is on my belly silly boy I sure love him!! All my boys cuddling on moms bed in the morning doesn't get much better than that . I love watching the bond grow between them all.WEss looks for them each morning to play and they gladly do. They are such good big brothers I remember this lady stopped me once in the store and said " I have 10 children and I can see that you are raising best friends there good job mom. "

MY beautiful happy baby!!


Hayden's new favorite thing mowing the lawn We'll see if it last through being a teenager.Hayden loves his dad all the boys do so they dressed up like dad. it was so cute!!


Brendon being like daddy



55 days our Wess has been on earth. Funny when you break it down like that. The boys made me figure how many days old everyone (Grandma's Grandpa's aunts uncles LOL) in our family is. It was pretty funny to watch there expressions as we were all thought of as ancient. It made me think of how short of a time we really are here and that I need to enjoy more of every day I'm here. I am so thankful to be alive!! I really do love my life even though some days I must break down and cry because I want my own bedroom but then I breathe and think of all the good things we have going. Like health the fact that we do have a home that my husband has a good job the list could go on and on and on!

The boys are doing great! Brendon scored 4 goals at soccer and Wess is now rolling over from belly to back and I think the other way very soon. Hayden is growing up faster than I would like. I can't believe how much he is changing. It is so weird to now have a "big" kid. It's fun to though we can chat about more things and play games harder than hi ho cheerio though I must say that is a fun game. I am working on accepting my children for who they are and really looking at who they are becoming instead of what I think they are. If that makes any sense to anyone. I'm working on really thinking about what it means to be a mom and what type of mom I want to be. We are also working on organizing this house. Winter is coming and if I am to retain my little bit of sanity in this 656 square feet of house with three growing running loud boys then it must have an order to it. It actually feels really good it seems as you organize the clutter around you you somehow organize the clutter in you and that is always a good thing. Other than that not much going on. Stevan is going to go hunting this year and hopefully fill the freezer I want to buy half a pig and we need to get more propane it is cold!!